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It has been almost a month since returning to the workplace. Of course being a new mom, I’m faced with the challenge of being sleep deprived but nevertheless I’m grateful to have a job. But I’m still struggling with finding my balance between work, obligations and me. The extra hours I use to spend at work, dancing or volunteering, I now find are no longer available because I’m literally trying to squeeze in so much into a small frame of time.

Anyone, who knows me, knows that I love to dance. And that was a huge part of my life but now picking up my son and getting to practice seem to always end up at the same time. So needless to say, the only dancing I’ve done have been the stolen moments in the middle of the night with my son in between feedings. I sit and ponder, when will I be able to resume dancing and my other commitments without feeling I’m short changing my son and family? Or will I always feel that way?

I find myself asking God to help me balance because He is the one who called me to these various areas. But as I type this I’m laughing because I had a co-worker tell me, “that people would begin to refer to me as being Bryce’s mom.” And sure enough when my neighbor greeted me that same day she said, “Hi, Bryce’s mommy,” Now, I proudly wear the badge of being Bryce’s mother but hey, the woman that God called still has to be about her Father’s business. Being mommy is just one portion of His bigger picture. Now, I just have to keep my focus on Him so I can see, hear and feel His guidance on how to put things in proper perspective.

I’m so glad, I don’t have to work this out on my own! THANK YOU, LORD